Though, I was never really gone. It just felt that way over the last few days. Things were so very hectic.
Saturday am, my cousin came with her hubby and the four girls, 9, 5, 17 months, and 4 months. We alternated between my house and Booga's. First the men went and did some heavy lifting. Then, my cousin, my mom and I went, and we separated, organized and threw stuff out. We met my aunt there, who was up from Florida and Booga's son and wife. Then, my hubby came and moved some furniture back to our house, beautiful cherry antique pieces, that Booga knew I loved and told everyone to be sure I got. I will take pics soon. I am thrilled with them, constant loving reminders of Booga and how special she was to me, to all of us. Saturday afternoon, everyone cleared out by about 5:30pm, and we grabbed a bite with the kids.
Sunday, I slept in... Exhausted after all the emotional stuff of the day before, being at Booga's place. The wake was 3-5 and 7-9. The funeral home is 2 minutes from my house, and full of memories of many who were waked there - family and friends - over the years. In between, sandwiches and drinks here at my house for 12 people. Only the baby came, though. My cousin left the other 3 girls with her mother in law. Pumpkin didn't go to the wake, but Fuzzy and Hammer did. They both had moments of crying, but were perfectly mannered gentlemen, and made us very proud as they talked to everyone.
Today, early start. 9am at the funeral home, final viewing, prayers, and good byes. The start of an emotional day. Then to the church across the street, my Catholic church that I made all my sacraments at and was married in. My dad is usher there, too. The music always gets me and my mom at the funeral masses. Ave Maria is a real killer... instant tears. My mom was a mess... although, Booga was not her mom, it didn't matter. It was like losing her second mom... very hard. Very hard for me to watch. Hard for me too. Then to the cemetery to be blown by 20 mph winds in 38 degrees... making it feel like 15 degrees!!! The tears felt like they were freezing on my face.
My cousin and hubby had to bring the two little ones, but they were great. Daddy kept them in the car during the cemetery. My hubby and I only had Hammer with us today, the younger two were at school.
We all went to lunch at our favorite local restaurant that Booga loved. It was a really nice way to cap off a stressful and emotional week of the hospital, and then the wake and funeral. Not to mention cleaning out Booga's apartment. That was so hard.
So, I have been 'here' but not here, and now I am back.
Needing a rest, but knowing that time waits for no one and Christmas is arriving in EXACTLY 3 weeks!