And, of course, I did it to myself... but what's a mother to do? Things need to get cleaned, organized, thrown out, put away etc. And, much of this was overdue.
So, then I pay. I feel like a Mack truck hit me (or Peterbilt, Cin... doesn't matter) and then backed up to check I was down good. <sigh>
Yet, yesterday I got Hammer to his appointment with the neuro-psych counselor that handles his Asperger's Care and meds. And, we stopped at Starbuck's for a snack, and some 'just us' time. And, we hit Barnes & Noble for a little stroll, too, and it was a fruitful visit. Got a few good books for Hammer for school.
Tonight, Hubby took Hammer to his teen group, and now they are all at Boy Scouts together. Pumpkin and Fuzzy headed over at about 7:30pm. They should all be home about 9:15pm.
I just want to mention that although it is hard to deal with feeling like crap, especially when you have to push yourself to do things, I have always tried to not let it make me cranky or bitter.
There are so many people out there in the world who have had bad or unfortunate things happen to them. I have had my share, too. I chose to focus on my blessings. I chose not to allow myself to be defined by the negative things, not to allow bitterness to overcome me. I chose the joy. I chose the love. Those are the things I want to be remembered for and defined by in my life.
It doesn't mean that it isn't hard sometimes. It doesn't mean that I don't get frustrated, because I do. Being too fatigued to take a shower, is a sad state to be in, and it makes me mad sometimes. Having to wait a half hour for my morning meds and a cup of coffee to kick in before putting my hair up in a pony tail, can really make me want to scream... but I don't.
I am so blessed to have 3 wonderful kids. They keep me focused on the joy, on the happiness.
That is why I soldier on as best I can, and sometimes that means succumbing to the need to just sleep and rest, so I can 'Carpe Diem' another day real soon.
Ps... did you see the full moon tonight? It is beautiful...