Wednesday, September 21, 2005

Pondering Me

I am in a wistful, thoughtful mood today.

Hadon, whose journal you can visit here,

The Hadonfield Myers Experience

has been doing essays on "The Courage to be Yourself".

Thought provoking stuff, I suggest you read them if you have not had a good, long, hard look at yourself lately.

Hadon talks about reaching your true potential, being all who you truly are and want or wanted to be. 

I have to say, that in my life I feel fulfilled.  I truly enjoy being a stay at home mom in ways I never thought I would.  I also think that everything happens for a reason and there was actually a point in my life when I thought I would be a physicist.  Now, I am homeschooling my son who loves physics, and at 13 understands it on levels that I cannot even come close to getting!

I like the person I am.  I think I am a good person.  I think I am optimistic and hopeful 95% of the time!  I have my 5% of down times, dark times, but they do not last long.  They are usually linked to my frustration with my disease or sometimes with my frustration of my husband not getting my disease, (LOL), but they do pass quickly.

I still have dreams, too.  I enjoy my writing and would like to write a column for a newspaper and someday publish a book.  I have not pushed for these goals yet, because they are secondary to parenting, and right now, the kids get close to all of me. 

I wouldn't change that, though.  I enjoy being their mom first.  I enjoy being here, home with them, all the time.  I enjoy being the house on the block where the kids come to play.  I really like it. 

One of my son Fuzzy's friends often tells me, "You are always smiling and happy, I like that!"  I like that, too.

What you read, and see about me, is what you get.  No false airs, no false pretenses.  Kids aside, my hubby will say that I am too nice, too caring, too cheery, too trusting, too naive, too forgiving.  Maybe that is true. 

I really don't know how to be any other way.

Sometimes, something happens to shake that, to make me think that I should be different.  Harder, more wary, more cynical about people and life.

But, I really don't know how to be any other way than who I am and that would not be me.

Be well,
Dawn
 

 

 

 

 

13 comments:

cdittric77 said...

Wonderful statements - but remember, do not become complacent! That's a bad thing. There is always room for growth :)

gdireneoe said...

You're ahead of the game chica! ;)  C.  http://journals.aol.com/gdireneoe/thedailies

sbrlzc said...

Well, I think you're just wonderful. I like ya. " )

Hugs,
Susan

lv2trnscrb said...

I think you are "perfect" the way you are; I think your priorities are pretty much in order for this season of your life. I am honored that I get to share in the details and musings of your days.

betty

gabreaelinfo said...

I do affermations daily.

Gabreael

jckfrstross said...

Be yourself that sometimes is hard

Deb

eml625 said...

I am still getting to know, and I think your an amazing woman.
Ellen
http://journals.aol.com/eml625/Onedayatatime

tlgf1968 said...

dawn, i am so happy that you've given us the opportunity to get to know you.  what's important, of course, is that you like yourself.  the fact that we love you is just a bonus ... hehe!!~  ((((( hugs ))))) tracey

hadonfield78 said...

Thank you my dear. and do you know why you are happy ??????????????

Cause you have the courage to be YOURSELF.........................

And I really love who you are, and what you are about.

sdoscher458 said...

Dawn it is a good way to be, I've been told that all my life....but I would rather look for the good rather than the bad.  It takes a lot to get me angry so when I do get that way it's usually pretty darn deserved. You have a lot on your plate and I think you do an excellent job and are a caring person...start to write your novel no one said it had to be done in a day...take your time when you have time...baby steps...thats what I'm doing....Sandi

lurkynat said...

Dear Dawn
Very cool entry!:):):):)
hugs
nat

darlenedennis said...

I COULDN'T BE MORE PROUD OF YOU. YOU TURNED OUT TO BE THE PERSON I ALWAYS KNEW YOU COULD BE. YOUR THE DAUGHTER EVERY MOM WANTS. BE YOURSELF AND LIFE WILL BRING YOU GOOD THINGS. WHILE GROWING UP YOU WERE ALWAYS THE LITTLE GIRL EVERYONE WANTED TO BE WITH, ADULTS, CHILDREN, ALL FAMILY AND FRIENDS AS WELL AS STRANGERS. I AM PROUD TO CALL YOU MY DAUGHTER, MY FRIEND. LOVE YA ALWAYS, MOM

lrttklly said...

I like you just the way you are.
:)
Love,
Loretta