Do you ever just wish you could turn back time?
I would like to go back to before the Rheumatoid Arthritis.
Do you ever wish you could just sleep and wake up refreshed?
Most of you probably do. I often wake up still tired. Like today.
Do you ever wish you could just play with your kids?
You probably do, and never give it a thought.
We played family whiffle ball last night and apparently, I am now suffering in several places because of it. I woke up in pain. My shoulder from swinging the bat. My knees, my ankles from the running.
Do you ever wish you could just not take any medicines?
You may have a choice. I don't. Today was methotrexate day. I actually put it off from Wednesday, since I had that reaction to the Remicade, so it has been 11 days since I last took it.
It makes me tired and upsets my stomach a bit. It is hard some days. Thankfully, it is just once a week, right?
I also had to take my other "usual" meds...no day goes by without them. Feldene, anti-inflammatory, 2 folic acid, a diuretic to help keep swelling down and 5 mgs of prednisone to keep away the inflammation and fatigue.
At night, paxil to help with pain, sleep and anxiety.
Do you ever just wish things were just simple?
I wish I could just simply be well, just simply play and have fun with the kids without worrying about being sore, just simply take a tylenol or occasional motrin, not medicines that carry their own set of problems. Just simple.
I just wish...
but instead, I have to fight.
Today, I am taking a jammie day. Tomorrow, I will fight.