Wednesday, August 29, 2007

Amazing Grace

Well, my parents left about a half hour ago.

The decision was made last night... I stayed.  My dad expressed his concern, too, and Hubby also made it clear, he thought it was too much for me.  Suffice it to say, things have not been that great for me physically, it is hard to argue that I can handle it all.

So, I did not go to Uncle Larry's service. 

Uncle Larry was all about the living, and as my dad pointed out, and he wouldn't have gone to his own wake, were that an option. 

True. :-)

However, I am still feeling really sad, and like I should be doing something.

Oh, I have plenty to do, laundry and packing... so while I do it, I am going to think about Uncle Larry and all the fun he is having on the Other Side, riding his hog, cigarette in his mouth, scotch in his hand, girl in the other, and another girl on the back of the bike.

be well,

ps.  Uncle Larry loved the color burgundy...  :-)


sugarsweet056 said...

I know that Uncle Harry understands!  :)
He would'nt have wanted you to put yourself at risk. {{}}
Have a blessed day.

klconard1 said...

((((((((gentle hugs dear))))))))) I am sorry you are missing this --- but the timing makes it too much for you.  No good will come of you being in a state of collapse.  I have missed many a funeral or other family event because of flare factor.  Thankfully I am doing better the past year.  I pray you will have that soon.
loving you

glensfork4 said...

I am so positive that your uncle knows how you felt about him strong.


ekgillen said...

My great aunt just passed away and I was unable to go to her funeral due to travel timing.  I spent the morning of her service looking thru pictures of her and praying.  It was peaceful and I felt I had paid tribute to her in my own way.
Think happy thoughts about him.  I am sure that would make him happy. :)

astoriasand said...

You just do as you say you are going to,and I bet Uncle Larry is smiling down saying go girl go !! He wouldn't want you to be upset.I hope you feel better soon.Play some of his kind of music at the same time and join in with him.This is what he would have wanted.Take Care God Bless Kath

tenyearnap said...

I'm glad you let your family protect you. There's only so much you can do. Sounds like Uncle Larry would understand. --Cin

pharmolo said...

I think it was the right decision, from a distance, Dawn. Your uncle wouldn't be there himself, as you say, so don't lose sleep over it. You've paid great tributes to him, and that will be appreciated and noted.

wildautumn1 said...

I'm sorry to hear about your Uncle.  I think you are already doing something by writing a lovely tribute to him in your journal!  Have a great day!

mleighin21st said...

  {{{{Dawn}}}}  I know how hard this is for you.  I had to miss my father's funeral.   I  believe that like not going to church, you can pray-or pay tribute-anywhere, anytime.  You are in my thoughts.       Blessings,  Leigh

jibaro6543 said...

I am sure your uncle is looking down proclaiming how you are the smart one for not going....sounds like he preferred the best and most of life...not to feel sad about death....
take care.....think happy memories!!

cherry2sweet2eat said...

im sure your uncle understands and dont stress yourself you have to worry about yourself and your health first your uncle is angry with you or anything like that.

helmswondermom said...

I know you hate not going, but you have to think about your health.  Enjoy your day.

chat2missie said...

Health wise, I think it's best you didn't go.  I'm sure Uncle Larry undertands.  Enjoy the rest of your day.

deshelestraci said...

I'm sorry you didn't get to go.  But I bet you will enjoy the wedding more this way

swmpgrly said...

uncle larry was probably sitting on your couch enjoying your company while others were at the service.

erarein63 said...

Your Uncle would probably want you to take care of yourself and remember the good things and times you shared with him.  I'm sure of it from what you have said of him.  Take care.  De ;)

eml625 said...

I think its funny that he would blow off his wake if he could have ! I'm sure Uncle Larry let you off the hook for not showing, he's sounds like a really fun guy , May he rest in peace (or not, he can rest , living it up in heaven)

jckfrstross said...

i know you made the right choice:) funny how your uncle wouldn't have went either. take care of you ok?


toonguykc said...

It was the right decision...but that doesn't mean you'll feel it was the "right thing to do".  Things like this can really mess with your head.  I know.


tlgf1968 said...

((( thinking of you )))

luddie343 said...

I've been thru this Dawn, and I'd say the only thing you should be doing now is exactly what you are:  feeling sad.  Let yourself feel everything you need to, then go about the business of living each moment just as Uncle Larry would expect.  When you get back, I'll look for an entry describing your memories of your Uncle as well as details of your vacation!  xoxo CATHY  

nightmaremom said...

{{{Dawn}}} Uncle Larry understands... trust me he does
love ya

mztishgray0726 said...

Dawn I know that you are well loved and your memories of your uncle will always be with you.  Sometimes all we can do is to be still and take care of ourselves to the best of our ability.  Gentle Hugs.  Tish G.

rdautumnsage said...

I'm sorry you didn't get a chance to go to the service. From what you said of your Uncle Larry he wouldn't want you to put your health in danger just to be there. He truly does sound like he lived a full wonderful life. (Hugs) Indigo

gazker said...

Dawn, He knows you were thinking of him. He's having a wail of a time now.
Gaz :-)

ksgal3133 said...

I am so very sorry about your uncle. Sending you and your family many prayers and hugs!

I'm here if you need me!


donejustwrite said...

{{{Dawn}}}...  so sorry to hear about Uncle Larry.  (I'm behind in my reading, per usual).

madmanadhd said...

Well I plan to have a hand in making the party arrangements for my last curtain call but most likely will be too damn curious about the Udder Side to hang around here for the going away partay. I take it Uncle Larry rode a Harley? That's how I picture it anywho.

Such good timing... decide to read a few entries back and hit on thisa one right on. Life... death... java... and taxes... sum of our lives? Hope not.

Thinking of you and the clan... hope alls well as it kin be.