Friday, August 10, 2007

Momma Said There'd Be Days Like This

Thank you, everyone who did Pumpkin's Meme, and those who said they would do it soon...  Today, we visited blogs and read the meme's together and she was soooo thrilled!   She thinks she is famous now!  LOL

Yes, Lori, she is a little Mini Me!  I see my mom in her, but most people see me! 

Hubby decided to stay home today, and he was truly wonderful.  He got up around 9am and did some work calls, and then woke me and the kids at 9:45am. 

It was raining steady outside, which was not fun, but we all headed out to our little townie luncheonette for breakfast!  Yum!  It was really nice!  Good food, good company!

The plaquenil is still 'taking the mickey out of me' which is 1940's speak for making you feel like poop.  I have a group of email loopies, friends with Rheumatoid Arthritis and Lupus that I have emailed with for just over 5 years.  Many of them are on, or have been on plaquenil, and told me the same as the rheumy, that it takes about a week to ten days, and then your body gets used to it and you feel better. 

After breakfast, Hubby started the laundry, and Kathy and J arrived for the day.  We had about an hour until we had to leave for the movie, and Kathy and I sat and talked while the kids played. 

Seeing how tired I was, Kathy offered to take the kids to UnderDog without me, and I could sleep or rest, and hopefully, feel better for later.  I was so relieved, I couldn't wait to crawl back into bed. 

Hammer and Pumpkin took the news in stride, Fuzzy, as usual, not so well.  He yelled and cried and basically attacked me, since you can't attack the disease. 

Eventually, he settled down, they went, and had a great day.  As it turns out, that showing was sold out due to a day camp of about 100 kids atthe theater.  Kathy and the kids walked around the mall the theater is attached to instead, ate and shopped.  Fuzzy and Pumpkin were treated to new books today, too.

Thanks again, Kathy.

We ordered in pizza and had a nice dinner altogether and hung out until about 8:30pm, when Kathy headed home. 

Fuzzy did apologize, but I can't lie, it still hurts.  I hate seeing him upset, but I also am so frustrated because I feel like somehow I must be failing him.  His sister and brother are so understanding, so able to cope when issues with my 'illnesses' pop up.  Why can't he?  What am I doing wrong?  What am I missing?

We've thought about family counseling before, and we may have to revisit that again.  I am not too proud to ask for help when I need it.  <sigh> 

Keep me in your thoughts and prayers... if you don't mind!

Happy Caturday!

be well,


ktkamanski said...

Oh I am so sorry your young one is feeling such pain! I am in hopes someday WE will All understand why this pain attacks? Love your graphic at the end - Somedays I have this desire! Hoping your tomorrow will bring you lots of smiles as well as comfort! Take care of you and yours,

toonguykc said...

Fuzzy probably regrets his tantrum more than you can imagine.  I remember once being so mad at my mom for not being young like everybody else's moms.  Luckily she never paid any attention to my outbursts.  But I still cringe when I think about it.  :(


(say "hi" to Pumpkin for me)

sdoscher458 said...

Oh Dawn it is hard raising kids. Just know that he fusses so because he loves you so and wants to spend time with you. Maybe if you tell him that you will set aside  something like "storytime" for him when you can't do the active things. I know my kids loved it when I read to Sandi

gazker said...

Don't worry too much Dawn, as Russ said he realy does regret what he did more than you imagine. After all, he sees your other kids taking it in their stride, so he must feel a little loopy at doing that.
Don't torture yourself about your kids you are a great Mum. I watch super nanny you know and you do all the right things LOLOLOLOL ;-)
Hugs, Gazxx
PS I don't often pray, but I will for you Princess Dawn :-)

eml625 said...

Talk to him. Ask him why he gets angry, mabye he doesnt understand all that you going through and needs more explaination. I know how my kids are since my hubby was in the hospital. So, kids tend to take bad things about their parents very hard, i've seen it.
I LOVED doing Pumpkin's Meme, tell her, I must have loved it, since I NEVER do any!!! But for her, I did it!

mleighin21st said...

Good Morning Dawn,
    I hope today finds you feeling alittle better.  Aren't those little eateries just so fun to go to?  Sometimes the basics are the best.  
    I'm sorry Fuzzy is struggling so.  Keep giving him that love you are so full of, and know that he loves you so much that it hurts.  That's what he's doing, showing that he hurts.  We had many problems with Son, but in the end he turned out to be such a wonderful human being.
    You are in my thoughts and prayers every day.  Have a great weekend.
                  ((((DAWN))))       ((((FUZZY))))


ukgal36 said...

In England "taking the mickey" mean making fun of...just thought i'd tell you that... ;-)
I agree with what everyone else said about fuzzy...bless him....

hpycmpr155 said...

I lOVE your journal!
What are "meme's" and how did you get all that fun stuff in the left hand column?


hpycmpr155 said...

You are DEFINITELY a woman after my own heart....
I lOVE my coffee......
Favorite quote? "Death before Decaf!"



nay0114 said...

Glad you and Pumpkin got to read all the Memes. Sorry you're dragging. It has to be hard for the kids to see that. Hope you rested and have a better day. Have a great weekend.
Take care, Chrissie

chat2missie said...

I think when any illness strikes a family, especially a chronic illness, a support group for the family or therapy is a great idea.  It's helped our family a lot.  Good luck.

rdautumnsage said...

I think Therapy is a great idea for the entire family to help them understand and grasp your illness. I wish I had gone the Therapy route for my daughter with my can be cruel about disabilities, illnesses they don't themselves have. My daughter even went as far as to tell me I was an attention seeker when I had to lay down because of the severity of the headaches. Doc made dinner one night and Skye's attitude was what's wrong with her now. They don't grow out of the grudges and hurts they have. Hopefully with therapy they can at the very least come around to to understanding it. (Hugs) Indigo

psychfun said...

Pix are soooo funny! Thanks! Remember...

But there's one thing I know
The blues they send to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

coelha said...

(((Dawn)))  You are doing the best you can--and I know you give your kids 110% of yourself.  I'm keeping Fuzzy and you in my thoughts today..  Julie :)  

helmswondermom said...

I'm so glad Pumpkin has enjoyed the fruits of her meme!  And I'm glad you are having such a great day!

cacklinrosie101 said...

I was reading some of those that did Pumpkin's meme.  That is so cool.  Dawn, there is always one child that is more sensitive than the others and doesn't deal as well.  It's nothing you did or didn't do. Counseling may very well be needed right now.  I'm praying your new med kicks in soon and gives you some relief.  Big hugs  Chris

sunnyside46 said...

I'm sorry about your and Fuzzy's problems
nothing hurts worse than feeling like you're failing your kids, through no fault of your own.
It cuts deep
All you can do is love them the best you can and have faith
Love answers love
It will be okay.

randlprysock said...

Hubby is doing the laundry?  Send him right on over!!!