Sunday, May 27, 2007

You're All I've Got Tonite (yes, I am on a Cars, kick)

I don't even know what I am gooing to type but here I am.

Some family members seem to have forgotten that just because I have a brain thingy, my lupus and rheumatoid arthritis symptoms (or MS, if that is what it may end up being) have not just 'disappeared'. 

They are still here in full force.  I am doing best.   My very best.   I try to do that all the time.

Others in my family seem to have the brain thingy plus everything else on their mind all the time and are overcompensating for everything that entails. 

Kathy and Karol... I miss.  Emails help but it is so hard not having them close.  I told them both in the past... if you are far away, it will be hard for me to help you if something bad happens.

I should have known that with my luck, the situation would be reversed, more likely and often than not.  It sucks. 

They do their best, too. 

I feel as if my ship went down, and I am on a life boat drifting about the sea.  All my family are adrift too, each in their own lifeboat. 

Some don't want to lash their boat to mine, because I might see their 'stash' of sanity and have to share.

Some are trying to climb out of their boat and into mine, amd maybe my boat can't hold us all.

Those I wan't to rescue me... are too far off.

And, the safety of a shore, well, that is no where to be seen.

be well,
Dawn

 

21 comments:

psychfun said...

Hmmm...very interesting analogy! And what you feel I feel a lot of the time. I'm the oldest & use to taking care of others. They see me as someone who never needs help so do I get phone calls asking if I need help NOPE! If I beg they come but geez. My sis has a boyfriend now so she is so distracted with that. My one bro lives 5 min away & doesn't call. His girlfriend is actually more on him...but they say call if I need anything but if I do, then "I'm tired" or "I got this to do" etc.

I guess in some ways if you keep paddling it may take you slower but you can make it...so long as no Typhon comes along...ugh. I think people don't like to think about it because they feel they don't want to embarass but then they also don't want to think it can happen to them. I know sometimes I have opened a door for someone in a wheel chair & they got all upset that they can do it themselves..."I'm not an invalid" etc. Sometimes a no win situation no matter what end of it you are on.

Maybe find some other boats??? I'm thinking of that also.

Now your quote....why? I thought love was about knowing you could ask and they would LOVE to help you AND love was about asking if the person you loved needed help. At least that is what I thought it was...I know some don't think so but they have the problem.

And the cartoon...I have insufficient memory and I'm not in menopause...so geez! :-)

iamtish0726 said...

I think you hit me right on the nose.  I thought that you were talking about me just with different people. I have the same feelings sometimes.  What I can tell you is that things do and will get better.  We just have to continue to be the best Me or We that we can be.  I know for me I have no room in my boat for others.  I have enough issues on my own.  I don't mind if someone pulls up beside my boat and wants help yet they can't get in my boat.  I am confused enough.  (lol).  Hugs.  Tish

jckfrstross said...

have a good week:)

Deb

acoward15 said...

As long as you don't starting singing that song from Titanic.
http://journals.aol.co.uk/acoward15/andy-the-bastard

topazscorpio27 said...

Family is a strange entity!  I always say,"I love you, but not like you!" and I go through the same thing.  I've had relatives die, be burried and no one will call.  If you need to talk or someone to make you laugh I'm here! -Dawn-

hadonfield78 said...

I am sorry that things are not going so good........
If you need to talk I am here.....

wildautumn1 said...

You are always welcome to climb aboard my boat! Bring everyone! There is always enough hugs & support & comfort to go around!

toonguykc said...

I only wish for you calm waters as you and your brood drift right now.  I hope you are all aboard a luxury cruise ship soon.

XX
Russ

eml625 said...

I'm so sorry about this difficult time your dealing with. When it comes to family and asking for help,  I know some might find it difficult. Talk to them, I'm sure things will work out.
Big hugs
Ellen

gazker said...

Dawn,
I have just prayed for the biggest, best boat to sail your way, with pools for your kids, games for hubby, good food all round and most of all, the best pampering and beauty parlour on the planet, to cater for your every whim. It will hold the best Doctors and Nurses with physicians to help you get through this.
Then one night, a helicopter willl land and me, Russ, Cin and every single one of your J land friends will land and we'll party right up till Dawns crack!
(ya didn't think there would'nt be a joke in there somewhere did ya?)

We think of you often Dawn and will you to get through this............ Gaz xxxx

sangrialel said...

Dawn, I wish things were going better!  I hope today you feel a little better.  Linda

sugarsweet056 said...

Sorry things are so rough right now...but they'll get bettet! Have you in my prayers! :)
Have a good day.
Huggies, Sugar

cacklinrosie101 said...

Dawn, I pray that boat starts to feel more secure.  I wish you had your support system closer.  Hang on for dear life because the shore is closer than it looks.  HUGS  Chris

tenyearnap said...

I just read what Gaz said and I'm ready to hop on the boat. Dawn's crack. He is obsessed! Really, I wish this brain thingy could get taken care of sooner. You must be worried sick.
How can we help you take your mind of it? I'll try to find you some more memes, at least. --Hugs, Cin

pharmolo said...

There is usually that one Pilot about, Dawn

klconard1 said...

Oh sweetie, I am so sorry that right now everybody there is feeling upset and stressed.  Sometimes the support system just breaks down for a little while because everybody cares so very much and they are so frightened.
(((((((((((hugs))))))))))) I'm praying for you.
loving you
karyl

helmswondermom said...

I hate that things are so rough.   You have such a great attitude, though, and you are always so much fun to read.  I enjoy "visiting" you, and hope that it helps a little.  (I like the Cars, too.)
Lori

rdautumnsage said...

Forget the boat Dawn. All of us here in J-land are building a bridge from where ever you are to wherever you want or need to be. It will have a landing dock on it for all of us to boat out to you and walk you across that bridge to help support you in the coming months, years. Forever! (Hugs) Indigo

ksgal3133 said...

(((Dawn)))
I'm here if you need me. Sending you many prayers.

Hugs,
Gretchen

sunnyside46 said...

I wish I was there to have coffee with you in person, instead of on the other side of the screen.
Marti

lindaggeorge said...

Sounds like you boat is having a bit of a rough passage at present, I hope things improve for you all soon.

Linda x.