I don't even know what I am gooing to type but here I am.
Some family members seem to have forgotten that just because I have a brain thingy, my lupus and rheumatoid arthritis symptoms (or MS, if that is what it may end up being) have not just 'disappeared'.
They are still here in full force. I am doing best. My very best. I try to do that all the time.
Others in my family seem to have the brain thingy plus everything else on their mind all the time and are overcompensating for everything that entails.
Kathy and Karol... I miss. Emails help but it is so hard not having them close. I told them both in the past... if you are far away, it will be hard for me to help you if something bad happens.
I should have known that with my luck, the situation would be reversed, more likely and often than not. It sucks.
They do their best, too.
I feel as if my ship went down, and I am on a life boat drifting about the sea. All my family are adrift too, each in their own lifeboat.
Some don't want to lash their boat to mine, because I might see their 'stash' of sanity and have to share.
Some are trying to climb out of their boat and into mine, amd maybe my boat can't hold us all.
Those I wan't to rescue me... are too far off.
And, the safety of a shore, well, that is no where to be seen.